After the sudden removal of Flower daughter last week, I’m left feeling pretty burned. The last two placements have been hard for my kids, in that the kids were yanked with no warning and with lots of drama. Some days, I feel like I’m just not supposed to do this any more, like there’s some way I can serve a lot more kids at once without having a direct impact on my own children. Maybe I’m done, maybe we should never have gotten back into this at all…. I’m really praying about going where God wants me. The problem is, I followed his directions to get here, and I don’t really understand us going through two home studies, moving agencies, etc. just to get two placements that left us feeling bewildered and confused. I’m taking the rest of the year off, and I don’t have any clue at this point what next year holds for me. 

In other news, I have a meeting with a man who is part of the human rights department at SMU tomorrow to discuss advocacy work for children around the globe, but I have NO idea what will come of this lol. He’s just a friend of a friend that I reached out to with my story…