How has it been almost two months since I last posted? I suppose because my life has been a whirlwind of closing on our old house and cleaning it out, travel, classes, setting up a business, and being a wife and mother. The days are so glorious, and so beautiful, and I am just so very happy. My life reminds me of an orange I ate a few months ago at Teotihuacan, glowing and full on the outside, with an inside stuffed with promise and satisfaction. That was one hell of a piece of citrus fruit. I’ll never forget it.
I was telling someone yesterday that everything over the last five years has happened so very fast. If I look back on all of it, it seems impossible. But now I think my life was on warp speed so I could get to where I am now. Our foster license, the kids we had, the adoption, the moves, the shifts in perception and assimilation of new knowledge. It is indeed a very good thing that I am such a fast processor, or else I’d be in trouble.
Now, I’m where I am supposed to be, at least for now. I know it without a doubt by the peace in my heart and the love I have for the work I am doing. Work that doesn’t feel like work, learning that excites me and makes me hungry to take everything I know to the next level. I am sitting with families and children that are hurting, and I am able to provide the smallest amount of light and healing to them.
The best part is, I know it’s only going to get better. As I expand my knowledge and client base, I’m gaining experience and wisdom. The ripples in the pond are infinite, and I’ve just touched a toe to the surface. There is so much promise. I am astoundingly grateful that my life peeled itself back to the core so that I can walk forward in faith on this journey. I am proud of myself for following my path, the breadcrumbs that were dropped by God, and my family for walking with me.
After all this change, and being able to now sit in such sweet spot, I am hoping for a breather. The only thing I’d like to see evolve or become different is my abilities as a healer and teacher. I’m hoping to sit here for a bit, to learn and grow, with roots planted firmly in the soil of my home. Sometimes what we want isn’t what we get, but I have a feeling the Universe is going to allow me the space to be a student, a lover, a mother, and a seeker for a little while, before moving me somewhere else down the line.